Should a guy like me run a one hundred mile ultra marathon in less than a year? Well lets look at just exactly who it is we are talking about. I am a husband of a wife I adore and father of two young boys that I can’t get enough of. I run a real estate office where most of my day is spent at a computer or meeting with clients. My idea of eating out is to find the closest drive through on my way to or from appointments. After getting married a little more than 10 years ago I pretty much cut out anything you could call exercise. Oh, and did I mention I’ve smoked about a pack a day since the age of 17? So, I suppose what I am getting at is no. I’m not the guy you would expect to see setting a goal of running a 100 mile trail run (The Zion 100) on brutal terrain with a cutoff of 36 hours. But, you gotta start somewhere right.
So, now you know what it is I am doing. We will get into the how soon enough. That will be a large part of the blog but where I believe I need to start is the why. I hit a crossroads in my life where I stepped back and looked at where I had been, where I was, and ultimately, where I was headed. The answer I got was that somewhere along the way I started setting limitations for myself. What I was worth in business and what I could strive for in physical fitness. Along with countless other mediocre standards I have set for myself along the way. I was not happy with what I was looking at. So, I started taking a look at people that I considered “superstars” in business and sports. While, in some cases people may be gifted what I really found was these people have just learned how to get clarity on what they really wanted in life and were ultra focused on how to make it happen. I found that I had all the potential I needed. I just needed to make the decision to change.
It started with a decision to get healthy. I would change my diet and pick up a little exercise regiment. Then came “The Run.” There was nothing monumental about the run itself. I told my wife I’d like to go out with her on one of her 5 mile runs on the trail below our house. What happened was about 2 miles in I started thinking about what I really wanted. I whole life transformation. And that wasn’t going to happen with a little diet and exercise. I knew the goal was going to have to be out of reach. A “DO OR DIE” kind of goal. It only took a mile or so of letting my mind wander to come to my moment of clarity. At one time I had been a mountain bike racer and at an event I was racing in (The Denali Ultra) there was one man that was going to run it. I remember the evening before we were scheduled to take off the announcement was made at the pre race dinner that he was about to start. We all went out to cheer him on and I remember saying to myself “this guy is nuts! How in the hell could someone run over a hundred miles!” And that was coming from a kid that was 12 hours away from riding it on a bike. And I suppose that has stuck with me ever since. So, it hit me like a bolt of lightning. You will run a hundred mile ultra marathon and you have to do it in less than a year. And on that run it also came to me that I would need to share this adventure which is why I am sitting here now writing to you.
I do find the value in the accountability of sharing a lofty goal and the accounts of my tale but the deeper meaning of this blog is that I want to show that one person out there that is hanging on by a thread and wishing they could do something more with their life that if I can do it, anyone can. I was stuck in a rut of making safe calls and small minded decisions. I got stuck tiptoeing into the shallow end and got fed up with not getting anywhere. A little “tweak” here and there is not enough to pull yourself out of it. You have to change everything. Once I sat back and took a look at what I really wanted in life the answered started coming. Now, to make it happen means committing to plenty of pain and discomfort. But what I am coming to learn is that comfort holds us back. If we look back through our day ever choice we make that is comfortable or easy results in us getting further from our goals. I see the resistance to change in my life now and when I find them it is like a road map of what I need to do. Hell, even writing this now I’ve heard my internal dialog telling me to do anything but sit and write this. Because its scary to share your inner thoughts with the world. But I also know there will be a wave of relief the moment I hit the submit button. I have two choices on this. I can sit on it, making my first post just right telling myself how important that first post is. Or, I can get through it. Through it out there and make the next one better. How long might I sit on it? I can tell you I’ve had this site built for over a week now. Resistance! It’s the killer of success.
So, there you have it. Welcome to Worn Souls. I hope you enjoy following along with me as I find my way back to fitness. I will be sharing more of who I am and how this all came about. Along with what my training looks like. I’m sure I will have plenty of do’s and dont’s for those looking to get started in ultra marathon running. I am ready to live life to the fullest and I want to take you with me.